ZumaDogg: Gonna go outside. In case a rocket falls out of sky, on me & this is final tweet, my message is: "Collective consciousness RULES the world."
Wed Oct 17 - 11:37:39 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Damn, I'm thinking of some FUNNY nicknames/whatnot that I'm not gonna be saying, anymore. My comedy arsenal is dwindling. :(
Wed Oct 17 - 11:34:45 am
ZumaDogg: If u wonder why today's ZD/feels so bad=I changed before your eyes. ZD=not life-long "Taxi Driver." Don't U think I SHOULD feel this way? ;)
Wed Oct 17 - 11:33:09 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: I'm diagnosed, "DISabled." But, I'm not TOTALLY disabled, so I call it "LESSabled." Though I'm not flippin' w tweets=I AM sinking.
Wed Oct 17 - 11:24:03 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: The toughest challenge I face, which I was FLIPPIN' OUT over, past months/triggering PSYCHOTIC=STILL have to do things="lessabled"
Wed Oct 17 - 11:22:13 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: It ain't AA/Gambling/etc. The awareness I needed was, "A good 8hrs sleep isn't gonna 'fix' me back=LIFETIME work=consider it AA."
Wed Oct 17 - 11:19:51 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Process to awareness, leading to recovery=When you run thru reasons (outside forces)=doesn't matter, anymore. Just do what U can.
Wed Oct 17 - 11:14:57 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Breakthrough to healing CAN be fast/instant=doesn't have to be yrs w theRAPIST. Happens, IMMEDIATELY w/AWARENESS, but a process.
Wed Oct 17 - 11:11:56 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: I'm not the one who said it, first; but now FEEL the meaning: "Awareness IS the healing." BUT, a lot of tangled mess to GET to it.
Wed Oct 17 - 11:08:39 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Shame/regret comes from appearing as "A-hole/crybaby/entitled/spoiled brat," who was a FOOL. It IS a disease. Regret will sink me.
Wed Oct 17 - 11:06:59 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Even last week, I had slipped into such HARDCORE disease, COULDN'T even sit at wifi cafe, anymore. HAD to get internet at home. :(
Wed Oct 17 - 11:04:43 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Luckily, Rosendahl's battle made me aware of how sick I became. LAST WEEK=couldn't even walk half block w/out bipolar incident.
Wed Oct 17 - 11:03:10 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Though ZD has been trying to move on from Council life; after yrs on TV=public STILL links 'em to me, 24/7. I gotta appreciate it.
Wed Oct 17 - 11:00:09 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Foundation, based upon realization=I'm linked to Council for (at least) years to come. NOT the public's fault. I gotta deal w it.
Wed Oct 17 - 10:56:55 am
ZumaDogg: U MAY WONDER: Why is ZD suddenly tweeting this stuff? (BillR hit me hard/awakened me.) When I was river of bad taste=no one asked. 4Recovery
Wed Oct 17 - 10:52:29 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Some may say, "Never heard anyone speak that way," re: (sick/bad taste dept.) ZD=working 24/7 to keep lid on "disabled guy" talk.
Wed Oct 17 - 10:49:26 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: OK for ZD to say=Council is collective body of inept butterfingers. NOT AS OK: adding, "w dumb/ugly family members & bad genes." ;
Wed Oct 17 - 10:45:20 am
ZumaDogg: FYI:Not to get it twisted=ZD thinks SAME of City Hall/collective body of shady, fuck-ups. RECOVERY=how I deal w/express it. I like THIS way.
Wed Oct 17 - 10:43:01 am
ZumaDogg: Have to rewire brain=don't wear homeless beard/dirty shirts=just cause I don't think folks should be judged on appearance. OK to look OK.
Wed Oct 17 - 10:36:41 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: A MUST=100% blinders/blackout of ALL media. (Can't even listen to OLDIES station.) MARVIN GAYE RADIO on Pandora=better than meds.
Wed Oct 17 - 10:26:38 am
ZumaDogg: @EricGarcetti: Sorry, I was so SICK/my feelings re: Bill. Still got 42.15 issues, but luckily I WOKE UP re: Bill=I LOVE BR/he's #1=he knows.
Wed Oct 17 - 10:22:29 am
ZumaDogg: @EricGarcetti: U watched ZD change, before you very eyes. U, of ALL, may be #happy to know=GOOD SPIRIT of L.A. zapped me back down 2 earth!
Wed Oct 17 - 10:14:16 am
ZumaDogg: @EricGarcetti: Been tryin' to boogie down to council, ONE MORE TIME, only, to let y'all know, LUCKILY, I now feel SICK about "Ugly" ZD=Sorry
Wed Oct 17 - 10:12:35 am
ZumaDogg: Anon: Took trip to Council, Fri=got there, too late. No bus fare=Tues. Couldn't get there in time, today. Will try, Fri=later start time. :)
Wed Oct 17 - 10:07:54 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: I GOTTA let it go, for today: I attended longest streak of council meetings=in past. Today=had ALL PLANS to attend council. No va.
Wed Oct 17 - 10:03:32 am
ZumaDogg: Anono: If ZD were, "BLAMING it ALL on mental illness," I wouldn't feel desire/responsibility to ZD/others to CONSIDER myself in "recovery."
Wed Oct 17 - 9:59:59 am
ZumaDogg: Anono: U know your words aren't wasted/U did more to bring me to recovery than ANYONE.U R doing better, too=but still "generalize" too much.
Wed Oct 17 - 9:55:26 am
ZumaDogg: Anono, re: "blaming it all on mental illness=EMPTY." Some CMs wondered to ZD=WHY THEM? Maybe helps em understand. U R still angry/confused.
Wed Oct 17 - 9:51:47 am
ZumaDogg: Was gonna take trip to council meeting. Was told public comment could be at start OR end of meeting. Can't risk that it's first, and miss.
Wed Oct 17 - 9:39:14 am
ZumaDogg: Woke up to go to Council to say a few things. Not sure I can get there. I went FRIDAY/didn't get there in time. ZD=ain't what he used to be.
Wed Oct 17 - 9:16:36 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: It's another day to deal with as someone L.A. City disabled/admitted they DAMAGED and I am forced to deal alone/they never paid.
Wed Oct 17 - 9:09:27 am
ZumaDogg: I don't think it really matters if I tweet, or not. Not a shred of interaction. Not gonna tweet my way to a career. I'll keep it in my head.
Wed Oct 17 - 9:04:22 am
Wed Oct 17 - 3:28:12 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Gadfly pals may wonder/not be happy/just left #Trutanich a voice mail, to say I was sorry for "bad taste," like I did for Bill. :)
Wed Oct 17 - 12:28:23 am
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Going to sleep heartbroken and in tears, better than in psychotic/near life-ending fears. #Progress!
Tue Oct 16 - 11:56:43 pm
ZumaDogg: WED NOTICE: I don't have my new cell phone, yet. Won't have it in morning, if you call. Leave message, I'll get it, soon enough on computer.
Tue Oct 16 - 11:27:02 pm
ZumaDogg: NOTICE: I don't have cell phone, but messages are seen ASAP on computer. I don't carry computer with me, at all times, so may be SOME delay.
Tue Oct 16 - 11:26:39 pm
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Gonna stop tweets, now, instead of 4a. FYI: Can't take Hot923 anymore=SAME FEW SONGS/daily. NOW=ALL KDAY/CottonCandy to ZD's ears.
Tue Oct 16 - 11:15:53 pm
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Mixed-Neuros: ZD=in civil rights battle vs City=I DON'T LIKE CITY. BUT=100s who WORK for City have been SO good/nice to me=I love.
Tue Oct 16 - 10:55:46 pm
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: ZD was engaged in civil rights battle vs CityHall (LAPD dragged in, too), but 99% have been SO GOOD to me=I wanna DO MY PART, now.
Tue Oct 16 - 10:48:24 pm
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: Everything's FINE...as long as I keep myself shut-out from all outside events/news and live in sanitized bubble, like Church Lady.
Tue Oct 16 - 10:22:16 pm
ZumaDogg: RECOVERY: ZD=so bad off=he has to create ALL his own music/videos to live in self-bubble. WORSE than the guy, stuck in TV in "Willy Wonka."